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2008-10-02T03:08:41Z

I haven't been writing. I've been furthering my education in the field of physical therapy, however. So I don't feel bad about the former.

We had a meeting early in the semester about starting our portfolios for PT. Next year, we're going to have the same meeting again and we will be showing our portfolios up to that point. I had the idea of starting a blog to keep my progression through PT on record in a way, so I may be doing that at some point. Stay tuned! Um, but I do not know how on earth I would be able to document the horror that was enduring anatomy. I've never been so shellshocked from a class before! Unbelievable. Actually, tomorrow morning we are continuing with Anatomy lab (we have an extra credit for it that corresponds to Kinesiology). I haven't dissected in a while, and I wasn't too stellar at it before, so it should be interesting. At least we don't have to worry about keeping nerves and vessels intact for these dissections, so that should make it easier. It'll probably be easier in round 2 anyway. I need a new lab coat and scrubs for tomorrow.

So, it's atonement time! I don't consider myself religious at all, but I think there is something valuable to be learned from reflecting back on a year's worth of wrong-doing. No one's perfect, and I'd rather be mostly good all the time, but there's slip-ups here and there. And nothing like atoning for all the wrong you've done to people by apologizing to them personally. That's the best part, I think. You can't just feel bad and ask a higher power to make everything all right again, you need to take the matter into your own hands and take care of it personally. I think many religions take both aspects into account (the individual and the higher power), but I think this order makes more sense. If the person you've wronged forgives you, then the higher power will definitely forgive you, but it doesn't always work the other way around. Wow, I just realized I went on a mini-religious tirade. Very mini. But still, very unlike me lol

I have a test on Friday. I have at least one test every week from now until mid-November, I believe. Pretty intense. But that's ok. This week was Exercise and Movement (not sure how I did, that class is so random), and then Friday is Clin Med. Material's not too exciting (yet) but it shouldn't be too hard.

My birthday is this weekend too! I'm going to be 23, which is so ridiculously old. I can't even imagine what it's like to be that old. I remember being in middle school, thinking how 18 was so old; 23 wasn't even a concept to me at that time. It never really became a concept. Oh, lol, I bought a bottle of Yellowtail Cab-Merlot for the second night of RH dinner, and when the woman in the liquor store saw my ID she literally laughed out loud and said "You've got to be shitting me!" I was like laughing and said "What's that?", she goes "You look SO MUCH younger!" Which I know. And I told her that I always get that. And that that's why I will always have my ID ready and waiting until I'm like 30.

Andddddd now it's 11:07pm and I have a ton more work to do for tomorrow. Bye!

dmdmdzydzy @ 2008-07-09T19:14:00

2008-07-09T23:16:09Z

QUIZ TOMORROW!!! eep!! i don't know my innervations >.< damn you, getting-up-at-4:15am-the-morning-of-my-quiz-to-make-money-ness!!

ok i study now ... bye!

this is an update. a what? an update? does it quack?...ok i just really didn't know what to put lol

2008-07-06T15:25:58Z

Today is mine and Dave's 5-year anniversary. The one we celebrated two weeks early. We're going out to dinner tonight. Woot!

I've been spending all my time reading and attempting to memorize the best I can recently. I think it's cool that whenever my mind doesn't wander, I try to think only about anatomy. It's awesome, in a way. It's a strange way of learning though. Very few things are just told to us, we have to look pretty much everything up on our own, which means you basically have to know as much as possible about everything lol that's cool to me, because it sort of forces you to be well-informed as opposed to just being fed whatever info is applicable to what you're being tested on. I think the proverbial "click" just went off in my head, and I understand the true basis on grad school haha.

On a terribly unrelated note, I'm worried about my netflix subscription! I sent back Regarding Henry on Thursday morning. If Friday was a holiday, then they should have received it Saturday, but I can't remember if they work Saturdays or not. And I haven't gotten any emails about it or my next movie. I'm sure I will tomorrow, but nonetheless I'm worrying about it lol

Things to remember to do by July's end:
-get car inspection
-buy parking garage card for August
-fit in 2 VERTs (i'm doing a Sci-Fit on Wednesday; VERT will be easier once I'm back home)
-sign up for Health Insurance for Fall (since I had signed the waiver I have to do this all manually now, grr)

I have to get much better at handling my money. I'm already good at it, obviously, because I'm amazing lol but my income is now reduced about 80% and I have more expenses. Therefore, I need to adjust. Again, this will be easier when I'm home again and don't have to worry so much about buying food and driving out of the way at times to Dix Hills (which yes, is closer to Stony Brook, but further from VERT, and removed from the highways in any case a good 3 miles). I'm nervous that I won't be able to get my work done as efficiently at home. I guess I'll just be at SB longer. That's fine, I like it out there. I'll probably go to the gym there more during the week, esp in the mornings if I can. I think they close at 7:30pm in the summer anyway. I'm going to try and do my Sci-Fits after work on Saturdays at like 3:30pm.

I have to read about removal of the anterior thoracic wall today. Cutting thru bone is weird lol but I somewhat prefer it. That's a hard statement to explain, so I'm not going into details haha

I need to do a bunch of things in the house before I go back home, cleaning-wise. I think I'll get started so I don't have to rush before dinner later and I can still do some work. TBC....

Quick update! I'm in grad school now and spend all my time focusing on my craft ...

2008-07-03T00:18:42Z

So I'm pretty sure it's not that grad school is that much harder than undergrad, but it's more that you just live and breathe whatever class(es) you're taking. Therefore, I'm here to briefly inform the the masses (aka, the one or two people who still check their friend pages lol) that I am now married to the Doctorate program of Stony Brook's Physical Therapy Department.

Today was day 2 of Anatomy. Our cadaver is pretty large, but I'm actually thankful, because it hasn't been preserved for very long it seems, and wasn't in terrible physical shape (as far as cadavers go), making it a lot of work to get to structures, but making them easily identified. Here's a video of what we did today (spinal cord - we did a laminectomy):

*BIG ASS WARNING: this is an anatomy dissection video, sooo if you gross out easily, do not click, k thanks*

The dissection starts about 1/3 of the way in:

http://www.med.umich.edu/lrc/coursepages/M1/anatomy/html/musculoskeletal_system/spinalcord_vid_orig.html

Our cadaver is much clearer than this one too.

I have work tomorrow morning lol from 6-11am, then class at Stony Brook from 1-5pm ... I can handle this.

Tonight is my last night of dogsitting! I'm going to miss being here in Dix Hills, but I'll survive.

LOL. As I write this, my dad calls me, to tell me that the people are staying in Israel until Monday now, and I'm here all weekend. Talk about being careful what you wish more. I do get paid for more days now, but I'm giving up my weekend! And it's not benefitting my Stony Brook commute that way haha I've jinxed myself.

More reading! Grad life is fun ... says the new doctoral student on day 2 of her 3 years ... to be continued ...

u think ur looking at aquaman ... i love the 90's station on Optimum ...

2008-06-25T20:23:31Z

you know what's awesome? that i'm showing signs of life again. the office was clearly going to be the death of me lol now i have all this time to show the world i still have a pulse, instead of sitting at a desk crunching numbers for what i believe to be pointless reasons lol the office job is done! i took two weeks before school starts, so it's just working at the gym and dogsitting and having fun til then :)

i actually had time to go away for a weekend, and to take pictures! and now i have time for my LJ and for facebook. and since i made a facebook album i think people have been shocked to see that i'm still alive lol i guess i will have to try my best to make my free time as enjoyable as possible, especially since the Stony Brook PT dept owns my ass for the next three years haha i used to take my spare moments to relax and do as little as possible, but maybe i need to be one of those crazy people who is just as active in their time off as when they're super busy. hm. something to consider lol

i am going to have to start worrying about money again though. i was working 50 hours a week before and had very insignificant expenses. i've saved a lot this year, but my pay is about to be cut drastically, and i will have a ton more expenses than before, including tuition and GAS. maybe i'll just walk to Stony Brook lol it's only like 16 miles from the dix hills house ... and 28 miles from my house ... figure if i walk 4 MPH the whole time, i can be there in 4 hours while i dogsit and 7 hours when i'm done. i'm so down. just watch.

i read about half of the assigned journal so far. not that it wasn't interesting, but i was really tired at the time lol i fall asleep reading the same way i fall asleep to movies sometimes. that's why i try to keep well-rested when school's in session. and drink lots of coffee haha

4th of july is pretty soon. not positive what's going on yet.

i need to pack a lunch i think for tomorrow. i'm training 5:45-11:00am, then i need to eat because we have a meeting from 1-2pm, then i'm doing a Sci-Fit at 2:30pm.

the end.

you bob for apples in the toilet! and you LIKE it!!

2008-06-20T14:33:29Z

I'm in Dix Hills again. Dogsitting is probably my callling. Well, besides the whole healthcare profession thing. It's perfect since I can't have a dog right now. I get paid, and I get a dog for a while! He's so cute too :) this is Chip:

He's 12, but he's still a baby at heart :)

This weekend I'm going to Greenport with Dave. We're celebrating our 5-year anniversary! Which is July 6th lol I keep telling him though that it's bad luck to celebrate anything before it happens. It's like a jinx. But I think we're safe. Thanks to Jason and Anthony who reminded us that it's been almost half a decade that we've been together lol I've only been alive for 4.4 half-decades. I'm happy, though, so time isn't my concern. It is amazing how fast time flies. We were talking about things from high school yesterday and it was amazing how things look in retrospect. Memories are fun, no matter how ridiculous. "Remember that new year's at Brooke from Syosset's house?" "Oh, you mean the one where you hooked up with Brian Jolson?" "No, I mean the one where Brian had a foursome." "Wasn't that the one where Adam got drunk and just kept laughing hysterically at nothing?" Ah, memories :)

I start Stony Brook in 10 days! Our orientation assignment is to read a journal they emailed us, and to watch Regarding Henry and comment on it from a healthcare perspective. Netflix, go! Anatomy is going to be fun, I ordered the textbook from amazon, but it hasn't shipped yet. We dissect on day 1 of class. Love!

That's all I got for now.

The end!

a quick update before bed ...

2008-05-06T02:16:48Z

I'm living in Dix Hills for the week. Dog/house sitting. It's kind of a pain in the ass to drive far to get everywhere, because my whole life is based on the fact that i live in nassau, but it's nice to have a change of scene a little. Annoyingly, however, I have to leave the house 15 min earlier to go to work, meaning I need to be out the door by 5am. Yep. Not so much fun. Hence the "before bed" in the subject line.

Work has been work ... I just realized I have like 30 days left, then I'm done with accounting :) I've been sick, but I'm feeling much better, just a cough now. Half losing my voice. Not that bad.

It was GORGEOUS outside today. I was tempted not to go back to the office. I did not give into temptation.

I want a dog badly!! And I need to start taking walks again. Peace of mind yo.

Bed now, the end.

Things! and Things! Goin' On ...

2008-04-28T01:46:10Z

I just got back from a modified weekend in Binghamton. I left on Saturday morning, got there at like noon. Parked at Bubble Tea, where Rebecca picked me up and we went straight to Chris's Diner. Enjoyed eggs and coffee and the company of the coolest people on the face of this planet. Came back to the apartment, went down to Spring Fling. Walked around. Recognized a minimal number of people. Watched acrobats? Stood in line to take a picture in a booth. Didn't feel like waiting in a line to take a picture in a booth. Stood in line for a snow cone. Didn't feel like waiting in a line to get a snow cone. Went to Hinman dining hall and got frozen yogurt instead. Sat outside. SOMEHOW got a sunburn! In fucking Binghamton. I was outside for like an hour and a half max. Anyway, went back up to the apartment. Went to see Baby Mama. Laughed. Ate dinner at Tully's. Came back to the apartment again. Went to go check out Lifehouse. Waited outside. A lot. It started to rain. Got soaked. Figured it was okay because Lifehouse would be on soon. Waited some more. Waited about an hour. Got sick of waiting. Went back to the apartment (Rebecca stayed for a while). Missed "Sick Cycle Carousel" and the rest (arg). Came back to the apartment. Got ready to go out. Went out. Still saw minimal people, but saw enough to suffice I suppose. It's weird how you stop recognizing people after a certain point. I saw Veronica at the Rat. Then Rebecca saw Ernest, who bought everyone a shot. I said no thanks because Heather had bought me a screwdriver the size of a buick at Tom & Marty's. EJ was at Tom & Marty's with Nick from fitspace. Saw Big Mike! Nick Billings was at Tony's. Not surprised. Heather sang "Piano Man" again for old times sake. Went to Pepe's. Went to Cafe Oasis. Went back.

This morning, woke up. Got dressed and the like. Went back to Chris's Diner. Went to the IFD Show *fucking amazing*. I miss dancing so much.

I'm leaving out a lot of details. Basically, I think Heather said it pretty well. It was her first time back since we graduated, but she said its weird to see how replacable everyone is. A new wave of people come in, and it's like you were never there. No matter how big of an imprint you make, it can never really exceed 4 years of recognition. But, who cares. Life's just different after college. It moves onto other things.

Speaking of which, I can't wait to start Stony Brook still!! lol It's weird, Heather was working on something for grad school while we were up at Binghamton, and last time I was up Dave was working on his paper for Law School. Soon that'll be me, bringing my papers and stuff with me on trips, since grad school will be all-consuming :-X but I'm so excited. I am stoked, even. Oh and Sam Tan put pics up from PT's trip to Albany, and I can't wait to do that too :) haha even though it's a year away and I have to get thru Anatomy this summer and various other classes in fall first. Did you know the first fall semester of DPT is 22.5 credits? Yep:

First Year

Summer	Credits
HBA 540 — Human Anatomy for Physical Therapists	6
HAY 553 — Computer Literacy and Evidence Based Practice	1
Total Credits	7

Fall	Credits
HAY 560 — Foundations of Professional Practice in Physical Therapy	2
HAY 500 — Neuroscience for Physical Therapy	4
HAY 519 — Kinesiology	5
HAY 518 — Foundations of Exercise and Movement	3.5
HAY 517 — Exercise Physiology	1
HAY 526 — Clinical Medicine and Pharmacology I	3.5
HAY 541 — Physical Agents and Wound Care in Physical Therapy	2.5
HAY 570 — Physical Therapy Case Studies I	1
Total Credits	22.5

Spring	Credits
HAY 528 — Clinical Medicine and Pharmacology II	4
HAY 504 — Introduction to Adult Rehabilitation	3.5
HAY 542 — Electrotherapy in Physical Therapy	3
HAY 527 — Acute Care in Physical Therapy	4
HAY 561 — Teaching, Consulting, Communicating in Clinical Education	2
HAY 552 — Research Methods for PTs: Design and Statistics	4
HAY 571 — Physical Therapy Case Studies II	1
Total Credits	18.5

lol anyway, I have to unpack and stuff. It will also be nice to eat food that didn't come from a diner, let alone Chris's Diner :) peace out.

Illness

2008-04-24T22:54:55Z

Something about being sick makes me feel like a kid again. When you're a kid and you get sick, you get to stay home for the day, and relax, watch tv, play video games, and just focus on getting better. You don't miss out on anything. The world will go on. I intend to maintain this virtue throughout adulthood. It's stupid adults who perpetuate the sickness when they just go about their daily lives like nothing is wrong. Then they get everyone else sick. Everytime I am talking to someone and they go "I'm really not feeling well", my first impulse is to be like, get the fuck away from me! lol I don't need your nasty germs ruining my life just because you're too stubborn to stay home for a day and take care of yourself! Anyway, staying home is awesome. I really think not having a weekend is finally all caught up to me. It's not like I'm doing what I love all day long. I yearn for the day when I get to schedule things around what I want to do. With no repercussions.

Not 100% sure what's going on with Binghamton this weekend. In light of my possible strep, and Rebecca's cold, we will see. I'm thinking if I feel well enough by Saturday morning then we can go then; the IFD show is Sunday at 2pm, and if everyone's sick then maybe we can all leave Saturday instead of tomorrow. Not sure yet, must talk to Liz.

I wanna win the lottery. Or something cool on The Price is Right with Drew Carey. Like a BBQ Pit. Something I would never buy on my own lol

I'm looking for B&B's or Inns out east. This is a tiresome experience.

Dave's birthday is in less than a week :) Poor guy has finals though.

Posting now ... from earlier. The end.

move along move along ...

2008-03-29T21:01:57Z

We The Kings ... holy shit this is awful lol they have a playlist on MTV hits, and it's the most monotonous selection of emo garbage ever ... interspersed with the most overplayed hitstation garbage ever ... i am switching over to Pantera's Behind the Music. so sad actually. i never knew they had the whole dimebag shooting on tape ... that's really crazy to watch.

Holy shit it's 5pm. I love Saturdays.

I guess I'll watch Resident Evil on SciFi. See what they acually leave in there. SciFi is better than many though with the editing.

Sigh. Tired. Bye.

ghetto camcorders and chocolate chip cookies...

2008-03-15T17:50:36Z

the subject line basically describes my night last night lol i hate how tired i feel on friday nights, after working all week ... dave came over, i had my ghetto camcorder from 1995 on hand, it had old karate videos on it ... i plugged it in and taped my messy bedroom ... dave refused to be filmed ... i got his feet tho :) it was so weird to watch back, because it really felt like it had been filmed 13 years ago, the quality and shitty narration lol ... i also baked chocolate chip cookies which were yummy .... i wanted to watch a movie on netflix, but forgot all about that actually lol so i guess i can do that today ... altho i got Children of Men this morning in the mail ... anyway, then we watched Celebrity Rehab (against his will) and i was sad that shifty relapsed ... his kid is so adorable ... then i fell asleep before jeff conaway ... i woke up and there was a basketball game on ... lol ...

currently, hartford is getting crushed by UMBC ... it's a 20-point game with 5 min left ... i bet on Texas today ...

i need to clean my room and do lots of laundry ...

i'm going to ralph's with sara this afternoon ...

i love that it's not 15 degrees or snowing anymore ... we finally hit the 50's ... woooooooooooo

oh, before dave came over i was watching My Cousin Vinny again with my dad ... it never gets old really ... still hilarious ...

i'm going to go get shit done now ... the end.

uh...

2008-03-12T02:13:30Z

wait a minute ...

it just dawned on me that the original reason i came to my LJ to begin with was to talk about true events lol not just to ramble about Fido ... so about to watch that by the way ...

anyway, i was in binghamton this weekend! shittiest driving weather ever, but we survived traffic ... we then (we = me, dave, brian and liz) proceded to play Texas Hold'em with a Tarot Card deck ... and rather than chips or money, we used letters ... like, cardboard cutout letters ... i won the first round, then dave took me out in the next on the first hand ... at some point, brian's letters spelled out "bj slut" ... which was pretty awesome ... liz's spelled out "bdsm", which she had to break down in correct terms for some of us ... not me, i'm good with my masochistic nomenclature hahaha ... so the really awesome part about playing poker with Tarot cards (we took out the death card and all that shit), was trying to read the roman numerals and figure out what kinds of hands we actually had ... that, and that they weren't hearts/spades/etc, they were swords and cups and pentacles lol

binghamton played vermont ... we were winning for 35 minutes, and losing for the all important ending 5 ... it was kinda painful ... but their skills have improved ridiculously since al walker was replaced by broadis (sp? eh, idc), so we were out ... but at least, for dave's sake, UNC won later that night ... i wouldn't know, liz and i were watching really cool things instead of going dt ... like He Was a Quiet Man, starring Christian Slater as a disgruntled psychopathic/delusional employee. that movie was emotionally tormenting lol i never really knew how to feel ... but it was pretty awesome ... then we watched lots of south park ... at which point i kept falling asleep ... dt could not have been that much fun, it snowed like 3 fucking inches that day ... the drive back was aight ... yes, "aight" ... we stopped in jersey for a few, which is the most worthless state bordering an ocean, easily, i mean it's lucky there's a mid-west in this country, or else no contest ...

umm, work on monday was blah ... i didn't leave the office for nine hours yesterday ... it went surprisingly fast.

vert this morning was alrite ... no 6am, which is the worst because i've just woken up and staying up is a much bigger struggle if you're not doing anything.

so tired right now, can't really think anymore ... don't know how coherent this entry is lol the end.

timmy, don't play baseball by yourself ... it makes you look lonely.

2008-03-12T00:42:31Z

you know when will be a great day? the day i don't have to worry about showering in between jobs anymore!

so so terrible that this ad for "microsoft accounting express 2008" just caught my eye. i've been doing this wayyyy way too long lol whatever, let the stony brook countdown begin! *i'm not actually going to count down right now, that takes effort lol*

i've been watching Fido on netflix. i want a pet zombie. especially one that was in monty python lol i'm in the middle of it but i have to get ready for work now.

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i'm back from work now lol well ,work and then training on the side too ... my left elbow and left knee feel nastyyyyy with pain ... inflamed actually ... grrr, its like tennis elbow/knee ... ow.

i remember i once heard someone say, in a video or something, that "pale, easily-dominated goth guys are best", or something to that effect. i do not think i would find that appealing lol it's not the pale or goth part ... it's the easily-dominated part ... who wants to be with a little bitch? no one, that's whom! haha

my dad found his really old camcorder that he used a total of like, 7 times throughout my life ... there's videos of my brother kicking my ass in karate because he was like 5x bigger than me ... not because i wasn't a brown belt yet and he was, or that he had been doing it longer at that point ... there's also me doing katas ... i have awesome form ... no wonder i'm good at dance ... and clearly my ego is the size of jupiter ... i just love how awesome i am :) 99!

i'm actually dying to watch the rest of Fido right now lol so byee.

nah...

2008-03-06T03:18:49Z

"the people have a right to know"

says who? who is anyone to determine what everyone finds out or not? a bullshit artist, that's who. lol i'm at grammatical fault here, but i don't think people have the right to know EVERYthing ... fuckin media, man....

lol Zodiac is still on! howwwww ... this movie is so long and uninteresting. and jake gyllenhaal keeps looking like shit run over twice ... tired and raggedy ... grosser than usual ... lol anyhow ... this one was a miss.

when did flavor flav start doing his hair like Wayne Static? hahaha

i'm thinking of moving to suffolk. if not now, then eventually. be closer to SB. money permitting ...

um, i don't know why i've seen so many sex toy ads today. so random. i saw several online, which is fine or whatever, expected i guess. but also on tv ... what the hell lol i'm trying to watch my show about skanks whoring themselves out to a muppet in a viking helmet, don't corrupt me with sex toy ads! haaha

im so freaking tired. time for bed! nightttt.

My future... :)

2008-03-01T01:02:39Z

I got into Stony Brook. Imma git me a Doctorate of Physical Therapy :)

woohoo!!

dawesome.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh

2008-02-28T00:12:52Z

i am BUGGING THE FUCK OUT! lol oh man

nooooo, not another work week!! >.

2008-02-25T13:27:50Z

In an attempt to delay this week from starting and having to repeat the same mundane cycle of activities over and over again, I decided to update.  At 8:15am.

I kept falling asleep randomly through the weekend. I'm glad this is how I spend my free time. I sometimes wish I was one of those people who works hard and parties harder, or whatever, but I'd rather just nap and work out and watch movies or tv. To me, that sounds like magic :) lol I like to think I work hard and veg harder. Going out is ridiculously overrated.  I can see why it appeals to people, but understanding something doesn't mean I have to like it. Like understanding why people like LOST. Yeah. Too early to start this up again.

Friday was awesome. Mostly because a lot of people were out of the office. I wish they'd give me more to do. I get so bored there sometimes.  I don't really mind, but I mean, they may as well. I will have like, one to two really busy day every two weeks or so. Which is nothing.  If this is what working in an office is like, as a career, I see why so many people put up with it. Maybe I should say 'settle'.  Anyway, I could never. Red flag on that not being anything that I want to do for the rest of my life. I could never make such meaningless things so important to me. I know they're important to the company, but with people changing jobs so often anyway, how important can a company really become to them. My dad's been with the same company since 1999, and even that is like not long enough for most people to be loyal, if you want to call it that. Anyway, I digress ... from something ....

Gotta get ready for the grind. Ew. February 25. I need to start a countdown to when this will all be over.  For good. I don't even remember why I kept coming back all the time.

I am not an accountant. I am NOT an accountant.

Ugh. lol. Here goes nothing ...

this entry is interesting .... like pretty random and weird ....

2008-02-20T03:18:26Z

Eww, it's so weird to watch people in high school partying these days lol they play flip cup with coca cola ... i guess it's good practice? idk lol maybe it's a good alternative after all ... i'm trying to think of all the lame stuff i did in high school that i thought was ridiculously cool. like reading Urantia hahahaha yes, that was cool, almost as cool as reading the Bible ... it does kinda read like the bible ... and why? because of Deadsy. that's really something ... lol Deadsy said wear a white chain around your neck and a wristband, and i did, happily ... that's kind of awesome actually. i do miss having more imagination though. trouble is it's endearing when you're younger, but the older you are with a vivid imagination, the more people just think you're a nutjob. i used to write a lot. very descriptive, imaginative, vibrant stuff ... not as often as i probably should have. but i cannot remember the last time i ever wrote to any degree of that effect since. maybe watching Eternal Sunshine again brought this all about again. even though that came out in 2004 and i saw it in college. it reminded me of being artsy. and i was much more emo in high school, without being a whiny emo kid. therefore slightly more inclined to be artsy. i at least had creative outlets. i would turn the most random things into completely different entities. i decorated everything. with anything. i don't want to become as mediocre as the world is. if it's not too late that is.

i hate dress codes. and i hate stupid bitches. and the combination of the two literally makes me want to punch said bitches in the face ... therefore, they're lucky i do not talk to them.

i have two netflix intrigues right now ... two movies fighting each other for the top of my queue ... in one corner, there's Finding Neverland, which has Johnny Depp and lots of awesomeness ... in the other, there's Reno 911: Miami, which i really have a strong desire to see. Maybe I'll just watch more Bullshit!, but it makes me a little cynical.

goddamn it, when did it become 9:53? i have to shower still. ughhhh.

and if i see one more Lupe Fiasco commercial, imma kill, imma kill.

i'm so anti-hype, it's almost not funny. i just hate it when people become so all-consumed with anything at all. especially lame things. because, u know that once enough people have a topic to discuss all together, all the stupidity of these opinions associated with said topic comes pourrrrrring out. people just express their stupid ideas on useless topics that no one else wants to hear. it's like "oh, there's monsters on the island ... wait no, i think that they're aliens ... no no, actually, its really all just an illusion". like really, just kill yourself lol you have no idea what's going on, your postulations are just thrown out there because you have nothing better to do, and to avoid the gutwretching reality that THERE IS NOTHING TO WHAT YOU HAVE JUST SEEN. this woman i work with, whose husband watches LOST, but she does not, said to me that she doesn't like it because she can "watch it one time, then watch it a year later, and not have missed a thing ... like it's SO slow, and nothing ever happens". i really have a deep hatred for LOST don't i lol i wasn't even thinking about it when i started this paragraph. i was sort of thinking about harry potter. truth be told, HP is probably interesting, but the hype mannnnn. i can't bring myself to get into it. i think i need to wait about 5-10 years. it's like watching Reality Bites in 1994. It's so much more badass to have watched it last week, like i of course did :)

i keep getting really hot and then really cold. it's so weird. i was boiling hot this morning when i woke up and at the gym most of my shift ... then i was fine at the office ... then i came home and i was freezingggg. now i'm really hot again. it could be the five layers i'm wearing because i was cold before though. ugh, idk. now i'm going to shower and i'm going to be freezing cold again. i'm a not a very good thermoregulator (wait, did i just apply something i learned from Animal Physiology? nooooooo...and here i never thought i would ever utilize the fact that some birds use gular flutter to thermoregulate .... i only remember because that term is hella funny sounding).

ok must shower. bye.

ughhhhhh

2008-02-13T04:58:47Z

Burst pipe ... I hate you.

I hate having to be the optimistic one also.

Like, honestly, how fucking negative can someone be if I am the one who has to be the Susie Sunshine of the situation? Remind me never to brood when I'm older. Christ.

Things really could have been much worse.

I guess I'll take this opportunity to change the subject. SUNY Downstate called me today. I'm dumb and forgot to enclose my application fee check with the rest. So I need to send that out tomorrow. I should probably keep a running tab of what pre-grad school stuff is costing me. 280+60+50+25+35+12+40 .... that's all I can think of off the top of my head ... minus postage. So far just over 500. Not so terrible I guess.

Valentine's Day is close. I'm not a fan of the Thursday aspect this year. I told Dave I wanted a puppy. Pretty sure that was a no-go.

Scott Baio is 46 and Pregnant .... and at Body English .... I miss Vegas :(

I should sleep. At least I'm somewhat updating lol bye.

tiiiiiiiiiiiired

2008-02-11T06:36:41Z

I'm tired, but not sleepy. And my back hurts. Better than the headache I had this morning I suppose. Too young to fall apart .... right? Blah.

The Eternal Sunshine weekend was sort of a failure ... in that it's been postponed lol. Guess it's happening next weekend, after the interview though. And after work on Sunday.

UNC won in double overtime. I guess I should be excited.

It's so freaking cold and windy out. Rebecca's in paradise. Not fair! I talked to her today for a little while. And I talked to Jess yesterday. I miss people :(  I miss college in general, but mostly the people. I miss walking into the apartment and seeing crazy, obscene artwork on Liz's door. I miss our sink full of dishes at any given moment. I miss the lady at Jazzman's knowing my medium coffee every other morning before I said anything. I miss IFD. Like crazy. I miss Heather's 6am stories about Thursday nights at Pepe's in FitSpace the next morning. I miss Liz leaving her car in the unloading zone for days, with tickets piling up, and not caring in the least lol. I miss Tal-Fests. I miss 21-Happy-Rebecca. I miss post-it notes about everything. I miss half-living in University Plaza. I miss Wegmans, I miss Bubble Tea! I miss Tiffanie's crude comments all day long. I miss Liz baking cookies and bringing us brownies, just because! I miss Joyce up at all hours ... playing Guitar Hero ... being Joyce lol I miss it all :(

I can't wait for Rebecca to come back from Hawaii!! I'm glad she will be in Brooklyn, and not Westchester. Much easier to go out to the city and come back to Brooklyn.

I'm really cold and getting tired. So I stop here. Night.

Cloverfield...

2008-01-26T18:48:27Z

Some may expect this to be my "revelation", where I awake to find that I actually hated the movie last night. Wrong. I did, in fact, enjoy Cloverfield. A lot. However, I woke up to realize that I fully despise J.J. Abrams. Fully. He's the classic case of "I'm really, really good at doing this one thing, but I'm going to ruin it with an attempt at this other thing which is really obscure and I will not execute well enough to think up a reasoning behind it ... but you have to accept me for it." No, J.J. I do not accept you for it. I hate you. Give me something. ANYthing. Or, just following in LOST's footsteps and don't tell anyone a damned thing about this alienesque octopus looking thing that spews out baby spider monsters ... with a vengeance. Just throw it in there. No explanations needed. Really. This has to be the basis of my hatred for LOST. I can deal with this Abrams bullshit within the time constraints of 90 minutes, but week after week, episode after episode, without anyone concluding anything about ANYTHING. It makes me want to shoot him in the head. It's like he's mocking everyone. He's saying "I'm obviously brilliant enough to make in-depth characterizations of every person that graces the screen, and clearly, I COULD give you some details about this creature, but I CHOOSE not to." Fuck you, J.J. I actually hate you. You have no respect for your audience. I know what you're doing here. You think that the minute you explain something, everyone is going to be like "...oh, that's it?" Well, that's a risk you're supposed to take when you're in the film/television industry. You're supposed to let people know what you had in mind, and not leave EVERY LITTLE THING up to your audience's interpretations. It gets them talking, but then what? You're just insecure. Successful, yes. But really, just grow a pair. Your definitions don't always have to be deep, or earthshattering, but they should actually exist. I predict now that the last episode of LOST, when they actually "resolve" everything, is going to be a huge letdown for everyone. Either Abrams will answer all questions, and everyone will be like "eh, it could've been better", or he will leave a huge cliffhanger, and everyone will just be pissed off. I hate his style completely. I enjoyed the movie, consequently. I think it's because it was a one-time deal. And the characters were interesting. And it paid good attention to certain details. But not the important ones. Tell me the movie was about something else, and I respect that. But, leaving out the monster like they did, it's like ignoring the elephant/squidlike alien in the room/city.

I'm going to stop here, just in case any more of this makes Brian's head explode lol I'm sorry Brian. Can we still be friends? :)

the end.

Because Alex is bored ...

2008-01-13T22:34:17Z

...I've decided to update.  Good thing that consistently updating my LJ wasn't a new year's resolution. That would've been a red hot failure.

Within the past week, it's gone from being like -2 degrees to about 64 degrees, and now we're about to get a snow storm. Bi-polar disorder of the ecosystem. What's the environmental equivalent for lithium? I wonder.

Work has been work. IMy schedule's been ridiculous this past week because I've been sick on and off for days. I'm better now, though.

One of my managers introduced me to the crazy world of playing Guitar Hero on my controller.  It's really ridiculous. And awkward. But hilarious.

I have achieved a "life" long goal of mine. I finally got to watch Brainscan. It was equal parts enjoyment to shitty acting. It didn't really make sense (discontinuity and stuff, but they get away with it when Trickster is all like "It doesn't have to make sense; does 'Death, Death, Death' make sense?" ...why I'm referencing a line from a movie that I doubt anyone has ever seen/heard of, is beyond me lol) Trickster, who scared the crap out of me when I was little via television commercial, is not only the least scary part of the movie, but he's also meant to provide some comic relief, and it really doesn't work. And Ed Furlong screams at the top of his lungs like a little bitch too much. But being an enthusiast of video games and D-movies of the 90's, it was pretty perfect for a Thursday night.

I was really tempted to watch Three Ninjas Kick Back also, but even I have standards.

I decided to order Ratatouille instead. It was cute and funny. Chef Gusteau sounded like a family friend of mine, even though he's French and not Czech.

Oh, right. I missed all the major holidays. on Christmas, I had Chinese food and watched the Yule Log in HD. New Year's was good. I attempted to call/text about 50 people in my phone and got through to like 11 or so. Partial success. Oh and Alex, since you were the one who forced me to update, I just wanted to say that I'm proud of you for not puking on the street/your upholstery and then proceeding to pass out in your car all night this year. Job well done.

I have to make dinner soon, and don't have too much else to say. Sooo the end.

ummm

2007-11-29T16:56:53Z

Here's as far as I got with my entry yesterday (I have this recent tendency to half-ass things):

How is it only Wednesday?? And why did I delete my weekend again ... working on Saturday and Sunday this week, and going into the city for dinner with Sara Saturday night ... today is going to be somewhat rough; I would say the worst is over, but that's just not true. Work this morning wasn't so bad, but I'm still working at BDG 1-6pm and then training Yardena immediately afterwards in Melville. They're going away tomorrow, and I couldn't meet with her last night. I guess if there's ever a heinous day in the week, Wednesday is the best option. Better than a Friday.

I forgot what it felt like to have so much free time like I did over the summer. I'm mad at Thanksgiving for getting me out of my groove and making me think there are more free hours in the day than I actually have available.

I don't want to be wash & wear ... that sounds like zero fun.

I'm waiting for these red heels I ordered online last week; they're gonna be sweet. I actually have the same pair in black. They're patent leather and funnnnn and I will wear them a lot probably. I need a pair of boots too.

Wellllll I got the shoes, and I'm in love with them. Yes. I am. I'm actually going to wear them to work today ... hell, right now even. While I play Guitar Hero. I love being a shoe person. It's actually made me scores happier than I used to be. I love that the day I found those Michael Kors pumps on sale is easily one of the most significant days in my life. Appreciate the simple things, people.

I had the best night last night, coincidentally. First was the shoes. Then, Dave's mom made me my favorite Persian rice dish, and he brought it over to me!! Sweetest thing ever. I was in such a good mood :) I'm going to have some now actually, before the Guitar Hero playing in my red heels.

The end!

PS - reminder to self to tell Sara about the disgruntled employee story lol

I love slippers. I do.

2007-11-24T18:28:23Z

Thanksgiving was lots of food. It was nice to see Shirley and Sharon again. I should go visit them in New Orleans sometime. Ideally when it gets really cold here lol

Mustachio Bashio was cold. I want an outdoor fireplace a little. We have a huge space heater (bigger than the one at what is formerly known as Skyline), but it's not the same as fire. I love fire. lol. It's cozy, and fun. Brian wore my pink gloves ALL NIGHT. Including inside. That was pretty wonderful. And Jon wore AG's dad's long red coat and terquoise gloves. I drew a Captain Hook mustache on Dave. One side was longer and curlier than the other. Dave proceeded to sport the stache all night, including when we went to the diner, at which point there was a cop in the bathroom with him, who inquired about it. Nice. AG cannot tap kegs. (cut to Glenn: "Sorry, I had to re-tap the keg ... some ASSHOLE..." ). I drove Steiny's car back. In my 3 1/2 in heels. Love.

I'm excited for Christmas. Which is NOT overrated.

I want to make Jason a gingerbread house. Then he will see how not overrated Christmas is :)

My IFD Seniors shotglass fell off the ledge and cracked! I'm sad :(

Must get dressed and stop being a bum. I hate vacations sometimes because they get me out of my rhythm! Work tomorrow morning is going to be rougher than usual.

The end.

and if you're strong enough, together we can take the world apart, my love ...

2007-11-21T03:07:53Z

for the public:

Garbage - "The World Is Not Enough"

I love Shirley Manson.